I will survive

God, plz help me survive.. i'm so full of hatred, jealousy, etc bad.. cant get a grip on my feeling.. whoosah whoosah... i hope i could really forget this, those people, those words, those memories and all the things that have hurt me so badly..

many people say 'if only i could bring back time, i would ... ... ...'

i really HATE that sentence. it's so cliche, so untrue, so... unfaithful... it's d second type of 'if clause' meaning: it will NEVER EVER come true!!! so i try my best NEVER to say those words as i want to live with no regrets, ever!! people who say that, in my eyes, they are cowards who cannot face the future, who are so desperate that they can never fix their mistakes and babblers who can only promise things but no action (i.e. NATO= no action talk only).

God, please forgive my sin for i really hate someone this much right now... i really couldnt help this feeling. i wanna shout it out loud so the world knows, but i know it'll be unwise.. i really need YOUR comforting love n forgiveness, so i can forgive others as You have forgiven me..

nevertheless, in the end i know I will survive, oh as long as i know how to love i know i'll be alive... i've got all my love to give, i've got all my life to live... i will survive yea yeah..... ahaha...

wew, i'm much happier person now. wkwkw... thx JC...